HEAR THAT, NATURE? First day of spring!.
Anyway. Some things on my brain:
The person I see in the mirror no longer matches the picture in my head. It's really odd, so much so that I am puzzled at what I see. I'm getting skinny enough that I don't have visible pudge when dressed and rather sharp lines - you know, that V-shape men are supposed to have? Yeah, I'm getting that.
I am also noticing some deformities in my skeletal structure because of it. I'm more tilted now than before as I build muscle on my right arm and not my left. This, in turn, titles my overall posture when I'm tired to a bit of a stoop to the right. Which makes the rounded-ness of my rib cage o the left side more pronounced.
See? Odd. I'm trying to be more aware of my posture now to help correct some of this. Look more man. Less Quasimodo.
That said, I still have some way to go until I'm really comfortable in my skin. But that I'm very obviously not as fat as I think I am, as evidenced in every mirror I use, I'm having a lot of internal conflict. Much of my self-confidence (or lack thereof) and self-worth (ditto) come from my belief that I'm still fat like in high school and college. That I can't SEE this any more has me reevaluating many things about myself.
Honestly? I'm feeling generally more confident these days.
Um, when I'm eating enough. I have been forgetting meals which makes me all mopey and depressed.
I need to start carrying trail mix everywhere I go.
Also - reviewed and rated 3/4ths of the wedding photos last night. many good photos. A goodly amount of excellent photos. Still need to off-load a memory card from the backup camera. but it's going well.
So! What are you doin', hot stuff? It would be a shame to waste this renewed confidence and new body.