Instantaneous, painful headaches, if I wait more than an hour past when I usually eat. This is an adaptive behavior, an evolutionary advantage my body has learned in spite of waht I've tied to tell it. It is my own, personal, punctuated equilibrium. That is - I seem to have an explosive evolutionary burst after points of plateau.
I feel this applies to multiple areas of human development, rather than the species as a whole. Who's to say that evolution only applies to humans gaining useful thumbs (no one, really - this is a regtorical device)? I say that evolution can include emotional, cognitive as well as spiritual improvements. I doubt this is an especially revolutionary concept to any of you -
Much of this stems from my spiritual beliefs regarding The Way The Universe Works insofar as human soul evolution (some one should keep tally on the word "evolution"). I like the concept of fate, at least a watered down version. I prefer that there is a set goal for existence, one that we can attain at our own pace - within reason. We can muck about life after life (yes, I beileve in reincarnation) doing things that bring us closer to these goals. We can, though, choose the path of resistance - active or blind. We take the switchbacks rather than the escalator such that we avoid learning certain things at a lower elevation. Eventually what happens, Sulley calls "the godsmack," is we get hit when we've been avoiding these goals for too long. If we're on the escalator, we fall over but are still carried easily on the way. It's les traumatic because we can pick up and move on a little bit of a better person.
If we took the switchback, we fall off the mountain - albeit(great word) on the otherside. Tis is the path of extreme anguish that results in skinned knees and darkened spirit. These are the depressions, the psychoses, the really bad times that happen because we avoided an important task. It's like a Spiritual Credit Card. You have to pay or you default. Hmm, that's not quite right but You (I) get the picture. These are those moments where we grow the most - punctuated equilibrium. Subsequently, I think God(dess?) is quite a dickhead even if S/He has the most loving of intentions. S/He also has a phenomenal sense of humor for a God(dess).
My body has also done this punctuated thing. During a time where I was thrown gently over the mountain I stopped eating. Like all together stopped eating - for 3 months. After I pulled myself out of it, and after losing 50ish pounds adn scrweing up my heart, I started eating again. Since then, if go that extra hour before eating I get a splitting headache It's like my body saying "remember that, dingleberry" (My body is mean to me). I don't think this is a case of conditioning because the reaction came well after the stimulus - no one was giving me headaches when I stoped eating. I can only assume my body learned an adaptive behavior.
This is also why it's so fucking hard for me to diet, eat less diet. Upsetting. However, I"m still exercising regularly and seem to be at about 200 lbs - 2005 with clothes.
This isn't the sort of thing that grew on me. It was there one day where it wasn't before. Curious really. I don't think it's a learned over time response from not eating. I never got a headache that whole time. Curious.
Alright. You can have your eyes back now.
I don't like full lunches. Even if I have to stay at work until 8 O'clock. Do your jobs schedule late work nights?
-ABM (written at noon today)
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