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Frozen pork feet
I want to redo the style of my LJ. I know how, but I cannot design one I like. At least on that incorporates my
personality, the important bits of my writing and beliefs and not have it ugly or busy. As it is recently, my spirital growth rate has increased. Rather, I'm starting to understand where my ideas are going. You've read those recent entries so have some idea where I'm going. Honestly? Those posts were more a tool for me figuring things out. I'm not saying I'm going to worship Quarks, just that there is Spirit in the machine.

So, I play in photoshop. I make images and generally poke and prod my computer until it feels like a piece of meat. I'm sorry baby, but you got what I need. I just don't know what I need. Plus, I'm the only one that would see the changes really. We all just look at our own friends pages 90% of the time. I like my ideas publicized. People should see what I'm doing. It makes me feel accomplished and spurs their own ideas

Publicized is incorrect (for now). Public is better. Me out there makes you think. You thinking gets stuff out there that I see. Then I think some more. It's great cycle that only helps me more. Take a look at abstractthought and 29comments. That was hella fun and I nearly broke 30 comments - easily a milestone for me. I like that, even if it did feel like a constant attack. I need to learn that sort of humility anyway. I believe questingfalcon pointed that out.

He may have been more right than I'd like to admit.

How many entries this weekend? I'm a shut in :( when my creativity is overflowing. I'm looking forward to work. It's an excellent outlet - however we have a late work night scheduled wednesday. Maybe I'll leave early friday.

For those that are even remotely curious:
Scheduled Dr appointment - sort of. They'll call me tomorrow. Bronchitis getting much worse.
Couch shows up tomorrow. My ass is rejoicing. I can't keep it still.
annan_dum shows up friday.
No couch potato weekend to celebrate the couch. Sad, but that friend is the cat's meow.

Subsequently:
Meet my computer's new background image.
-ABM



Circuit Catcher (c) Will Ringland 2004
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rokkitz From: rokkitz Date: October 10th, 2004 03:02 pm (UTC) (Link)
funny you say that, i attempted a redesign today but the options are sorely limited for a free user. i can't get the colouring right, the styles lack the comprehensive info i want, etc... but it's true: who will look at it but me?

I like my ideas publicized. People should see what I'm doing. It makes me feel accomplished and spurs their own ideas

again, i want the same. sure, i write for me, but my whole style has evolved over the last 2 years of lj to entertain my imaginary audience. i can't help but feel a little overlooked when i write a "brilliant" omnigraph and there are no comments. and i don't expect my friends to comment all the time either. i should be posting to more community spaces, but my experience with that is that people are OVERLY CRITICAL. pointing out your hairy knuckles and what's under your nails, more than looking at where your hand is pointing. but critical perspective is not to be had in bubble-world. i need constructive criticism or for my subject to be addressed, but i can't devote much time to repsonses and defense. i don't want to feel harried for my writing, this is not a peer-reviewed journal. i don't want to have to one-up commentators. but i want some reaction. how's that for indecision?

i need a publicist.

Me out there makes you think. You thinking gets stuff out there that I see. Then I think some more. It's great cycle that only helps me more.

ah, my favourite: the bootstrap method. in my "real-life" circles, i was deeply inspired by the art and imagination in my spiritual community spaces (OMies and BLAers) and through that inspiration, because of my peculiar math/sci edu-tainment bent, i became interested in increasing the resolution of that inspiration by giving those same artists new conceptual tools with which to improve their own work. it all seems to be working ;o) if all we can do is inspire each other, well, that's not such a bad run of things!
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