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And now, a zany face

And now, a zany face
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This past weekend is dedicated to the Forces of Awesome.
    A quick list of nifty things:
  • New lamp.
  • Fun play party Saturday night, which included..
    1. A nifty heart-shaped tie on lady_fox (photos forthcoming)
    2. Demonstration of jeffreyp's St. Andrew's Cross.
    3. Finally got to meet the attractive megwyn.
    4. More time with the photogenic cats. :)

  • New pants as I've shrunk out of my current pants already.
  • I found the twin to our raffle-won nightstand. (Yay!)
  • Breakfast with smed.
  • quincidence's birthday party.
  • Seeing tandu and slavetopurple for the first time in months.
  • Meeting a new, very nifty pointnopoint.

Many things. Still managed good downtime to continue the media center conversion and entirely too many video games.

I did, amongst the activities, have a revelation this weekend. My activity level is directly related to my confidence which is, moreso than previously though, directly related to my weight.

As much as I want to believe that isn't the case, it is. I've lost about 8 pounds in the last twoish weeks since starting the crash diet I'm on. I already look better in a lot of my clothes and bought smaller pants. It's remarkable, really, the difference I feel. I'm more willing to go to play parties, more willing to display my rope work, more apt to snag candid photos, and more likely to chat up the attractive people.

Finally, which is an especially intriguing and twisted aspect of my psyche, I am more attracted to other people when I feel more confident. Yeah, that doesn't make a whole lot of sense. I suspect it has something to do with feeling worthy of attraction and thereby allow myself to BE attracted to someone else; which, in turn, creates a neat-o positive feedback loop.

Anyway you look at it, though, the difference is palpable - Fox certainly noticed this weekend.

While I'm frustrated that I'm not confident normally I'm certainly pleased I noticed this link; plus, the boost in confidence, once linked to weight loss, is a ludicrously powerful reinforcement to my annoyingly restrictive diet. And that my psychology works like this is a touch cock-eyed. Ah well.

I also felt comfortable turning the camera on myself again. Therefore, you get my funny mug above. Nyaa.

Current Mood: good good

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nathan_lounge From: nathan_lounge Date: October 15th, 2007 01:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
And apparently more willing to stick your tongue out at me.

Man, when did thin, sexy will turn into such a jerk?
abmann From: abmann Date: October 15th, 2007 01:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
I've always been a jerk.
I thought you knew me. I thought you were my friend!
nathan_lounge From: nathan_lounge Date: October 15th, 2007 02:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
*You* are the one that seems to be leaving pieces of himself everywhere.

I mean, what if the things I loved most where in those 8 pounds??? Did you think about that? Have you even considered my feelings in this matter??
abmann From: abmann Date: October 15th, 2007 02:42 pm (UTC) (Link)
8 pound cock. That's what you love.
nathan_lounge From: nathan_lounge Date: October 15th, 2007 04:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
A couple weeks ago we bought a cow. Me and some guys on the line were talking about it while cooking one night and started talking about preparations of organs, cheeks, and other non-traditional cuts. Then one guy said something about Bull cock and I, without really thinking about it, said that I could cook a cock ten different ways. This has since been a running joke about putting ten preparations of cock on the menu.
assfingers From: assfingers Date: October 15th, 2007 04:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
quincidence From: quincidence Date: October 15th, 2007 04:03 pm (UTC) (Link)
THANKS for coming to the party. Glad you got to meet another "oh YOUUUU are angrybunnyman!" fan.hee
It was great that you guys made it. Sorry to tempt you with cake... I am grateful that you were so gracious about it.
abmann From: abmann Date: October 15th, 2007 05:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, that was pretty entertaining. It's been about a year since that's happened. I like it. :) Makes me feel special.
quincidence From: quincidence Date: October 15th, 2007 05:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, the face you made was adorable and priceless. I was thrilled for you. You do some great photography.
rianwyn From: rianwyn Date: October 15th, 2007 04:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
YAY confidence!!

*hugs all around*
abmann From: abmann Date: October 15th, 2007 05:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yay hugs!
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