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abmann
abmann
They're WATCHING me.
1!
There's a man on a crane outside my window. Theoretically he's fixing my window's incontinence problem.
I think he's a spy...

2!
Nice blond girl stopped y again this morning. I rather like this habit of her's.
I have no idea how to ask her out at work. It's kinda weird... asking a person out at work.

3!
My camera bag has no personality. I think I want to cool-ify it but I'm unsure how.

4!
In other news.

5!
I really want to watch Josie and The Pussycats again. That movie makes me happy, even if Posie Parker is creepy.

Current Mood: crazy paranoid
Current Music: Hole - Starbelly

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lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: July 31st, 2006 02:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
"Hey, we should get coffee sometime. Get away from the scary computers/office mates/cranes."
abmann From: abmann Date: July 31st, 2006 02:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
Sure, you make it sound so easy.
It's more that she knows I'm dating you and I'm going to have to explain. I don't want to do that around a lot of people who may only hear part of the conversation.
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: July 31st, 2006 02:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ah. email?
abmann From: abmann Date: July 31st, 2006 02:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
Seems a better option though impersonal. I'm hopingto catch her when she leaves one day. We go at about the same time every day.

I'm such a dork. :)
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: July 31st, 2006 02:21 pm (UTC) (Link)
But a cute dork, so it's ok. :)

Alternatively, if she stops by before lunch one day, you could ask what she's doing for lunch, and suggest getting lunch together. Innocuous, and a good way to get away from peoples.
abmann From: abmann Date: July 31st, 2006 02:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
Darn peoples and their being around.
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: July 31st, 2006 02:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
No kidding. They should leave you alone. Crazy peoples.
evilevi From: evilevi Date: July 31st, 2006 02:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
That's at least somewhat easier than if she *didn't* know you were dating Fox and you had to explain.
abmann From: abmann Date: July 31st, 2006 02:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
True, I suppose.

What am I trying to get myself into? I think I'm nuts.
evilevi From: evilevi Date: July 31st, 2006 03:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
What am I trying to get myself into?

That might be a good question to answer before you take steps to get into it. :)

But I don't think you're nuts.
abmann From: abmann Date: July 31st, 2006 03:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
This whole multiple relationship thing is still goofy.


evilevi From: evilevi Date: July 31st, 2006 03:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hm, I'm not sure "goofy" is an adjective I've ever thought to apply to polyamory. *laugh* Goofy in the sense of it still seeming strange that asking other women out is perceived as a good thing by your loves?

I think I might be swearing off serious relationships in general for a while. We shall see.
abmann From: abmann Date: July 31st, 2006 03:35 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yes, to your first paragraph. Also, that I'm still so bad at it. :) Also, to steal something from pkstudios, I feel like a magpie. Vaguely unfocused too. I feel like I should be more distilled in who I persue. This is likely a battle between my belief that more serious relationships are "better" and believing that flitting between people can be using them.

Why swearing off? Did this come from your talk last week with sleepingzebras and ladymeshel?

And I just remembered I need to put an order into Rainbow Rope so I can make good on my promises to you for Kinked in August. Hooray for payday tomorrow! >:)
evilevi From: evilevi Date: July 31st, 2006 05:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
Just because relationships take almost constant work doesn't mean you're bad at them. It just means you're willing to work on them, which is a good thing. :)

I know what you mean about the magpie feeling, though. I've been thinking a lot about whether I should have more specific guidelines regarding who I should pursue. I am very good at seeing potential in relationships and appreciating people for their good qualities and the way those qualities can enrich my life, but I'm starting to see that that doesn't necessarily make all of them a good fit for me in a more overall sense. I think I've been overplaying the fact that because I can have multiple relationships I don't need to get everything from one person and using that to avoid having any definite requirements. I like the flexibility of this, but I'm starting to see that it's not the best approach for getting my needs met.

I tend to take relationships seriously, but there are only so many serious relationships to which one can devote sufficient time and attention. I think two is probably my limit. Anything beyond that probably needs to involve far less commitment of time and energy. I've found I can easily do casual with some people, but it's a lot harder with others. A casual sexual relationship that developed with someone who has been a friend for years seems to work pretty well that way, but I think it's harder to maintain that with brand new shiny people.

This mostly has come from the breakup with sleepingzebras which has had deep and serious consequences for my relationship with hagbard23 which has got me thinking a lot about what things I definitely need in a serious relationship in order for it to be able to withstand other serious relationships. And until I get that more figured out in theory, practice seems like a very bad idea.

I'm very glad to have friends to tie me up and such while I figure things out, though. :)
djtaldragon From: djtaldragon Date: July 31st, 2006 05:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
Mind me if I'm wrong, man, but I think you're PPAAAAARRRRAAANNNOOOOIIIDDDDD!!!!!!!




Remember. Just cause you're paranoid, doensn't mean they're not still out to get you...


>: )
abmann From: abmann Date: July 31st, 2006 05:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
You're not helping.
Or maybe you are.


Hmm..

You must be one of them.
rianwyn From: rianwyn Date: July 31st, 2006 06:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
What about learning some basic embroidery things?
Brightly colored floss... patches/beads/decorative stitches.
Or you could get some small ropes and put some sample-type things of your own handiwork.

As for asking someone out at work... no clue. I have only ever been on, like, 3 dates anyway.
abmann From: abmann Date: July 31st, 2006 06:29 pm (UTC) (Link)
I was thinking patches or something similar. I'm not sure the case would look good with embroidery given the fabric type.
fiendishx From: fiendishx Date: July 31st, 2006 11:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm hiding in your bushes.
Waiting for my chance to strike.
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abmann From: abmann Date: August 1st, 2006 12:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
You rock. :) Thanks for the ideas.
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abmann From: abmann Date: August 1st, 2006 12:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
See, I'd worry about offending people that had served in the military. Now were they my father's of my grandfather's, that would be pretty cool and respectful.
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abmann From: abmann Date: August 1st, 2006 02:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
Boyscout merit badges? May attract the wrong crowd though. :P
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