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Despair - Portrait of a Young Man as The Artist — LiveJournal
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Despair
My pseudonym is Despair
I was not fixed.
I am not real.
I am not full
without all of you, knowing that
in a room full of mirrors I am not the only reflection;
An infinitely sad reflection.
My pseudonyms are a lie when confronted
with an accurate representation of myself.
The coin viciously turns
and cuts ribbons of me.
I cannot understand and it isn't explained.
My questions return with nothing
but confusion as if I am not clearly stating
I need you. I don't feel full
in a room of mirrors alone. We go to the circus
with friends - expect to leave with them
only to be abandoned when we really need
Please don't leave me alone.
I can't stand to be lost
in a room full of myself.
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lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: August 19th, 2004 07:40 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm guessing that this is a response to lack of response to the poetry you've been writing. It's poignant. It's also my favorite of your recent stuff... *hug*
abmann From: abmann Date: August 19th, 2004 08:01 am (UTC) (Link)
Ths is true.

Why do you like this one better? I don't really like it. It's too...emotional to the point where it feels needy and overdramatic.

It's blatant angst. I destest blatant angst.
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: August 19th, 2004 01:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
I like it because it IS emotional... the others are so intellectual that the emotion gets lost.

perhaps it is angsty... you may be right there... but at least I felt what you did.
abmann From: abmann Date: August 20th, 2004 10:00 pm (UTC) (Link)
THis is still part of our personal dichotomy. I reiterate we are different people. It just comes out in strange ways. I don't think you and I will ever really like eachother's poetry. However, togather we could make some interesting stuff.
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: August 20th, 2004 10:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
interesting idea... collaborative poetry... would that even work??
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