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Vacation means more of me! - Portrait of a Young Man as The Artist — LiveJournal
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Vacation means more of me!
Ahhhhhhh.

Slept in. Cooked a nice breakfast (wild leek and mozarella omlet). Saved my car from the destruct-o machines demoing our parking lot. Vacation is good.

Consider the following:

I'm at a coffee shop. I go to coffee shops in my free time, you know for caffeine, Dagoba, the cute barristas (the red-head with the nice butt and hipster glasses is working today [it's always the red heads]). I putter around LJ and the internet (StumbleUpon is your friend) while I watch people and relax. This isn't very different than most evenings or weekends; in fact, the difference really is that I got here before 7pm.

So.... Does this make me:

Boring
0(0.0%)
Easy to please
14(87.5%)


I lean towards the latter. I do not default to this but choose it. This is a minute but crucial detail. I'd like to think that I understand what I like, and in most areas such is true; further, it is the simpler things that I'm starting to like when I have time to myself. I have found little better for the afternoon than accepting grass and a well-worn book. In fact, I'm starting to dislike even the little bit of TV I have been watching. Problematically (and unbeknownst to the following individual) much of my TV watching is to spend time with lady_fox. This is nice time but ultimately not what I'd prefer.

Note: there is hardly anything wrong with this given that I strongly believe a good relationship is a balance of give and take.

This awareness is new to me, mind. And unearth that which I'd prefer that is something she'd wish to do is the real "challenge." Quoted because fun things aren't challenges, especially ones potentially as simple as me reading with my feet on her lap as she watches Gilmore Girls. It is shared time, time existing together where te focus meanders between us two and the one - a unifed solitude if that makes sense. This is something I gratefully learned from aetrix9 that I am only now consciously understanding.

The point being, I understand what I want with and for myself, to prepositions many people do not consider. I like coffee shops. I like LiveJournal. I like reading the news online and commenting goffy things to interesting people. Vacation to me, then, is having more of this than I do on a normal work day. That my normal work day includes many things which I enjoy speaks volumes to the beneficence of my job.

Thus, as much as I was feeling odd that I hadn't planned a Big Something such as a trip to another state or resort, I am equally contented, now, that I have only a few things planned with excellent people and vast tracts of... free time.

One thing that displeases me at the moment. I did not grab my camera in my hurrying to save my car.
Also, the screaming baby is rather grating.

I also did this today, after finishing the entry, but before posting.

This is a shot I got two weeks ago of St. Raphael's steeple. I adjusted the hues and contrast. Very haunting. I am pleased with the outcome, for now.

I apologize if it is really dark. The light in Barriques is washing out my monitor.

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Current Location: Barriques in Middleton
Current Mood: relaxed relaxed
Current Music: Something I don't recognize but like.

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lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: May 5th, 2006 04:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
We should talk about this spending time thing.
abmann From: abmann Date: May 5th, 2006 04:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
Indeed. It is a good thing!
evilevi From: evilevi Date: May 5th, 2006 05:25 pm (UTC) (Link)
Pardon me if I ignore all of the meaningful content of this post and fixate on the chocolate. I envy your access to chocolate. I had some Dagoba dark chocolate with lime this morning, but now it is gone. And I need something to dilate my blood vessels.
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: May 5th, 2006 05:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
I hear you, sister. Man. I need caffeine or chocolate, or better yet, both!
evilevi From: evilevi Date: May 5th, 2006 05:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
Chocolate is pretty much the most caffeine my system can tolerate well. However, I'm desperate enough that I'm trying a small cup of green tea.
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: May 5th, 2006 05:55 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ooh... good luck.

I hope it doesn't hurt.
evilevi From: evilevi Date: May 5th, 2006 06:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
I drank about half of the cup (maybe 3 oz) and was buzzing to the point of being unable to focus, but it seems to be wearing off a little bit now. Of course, I bounce off the walls from decaf coffee.

The good news is that it didn't give me heart palpitations, though.
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: May 5th, 2006 06:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yay, no heart palpitations! Those are scary.
abmann From: abmann Date: May 5th, 2006 10:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
So ya gonna comment on the content or do I need to pout at ya?

I have lots of good chocolate hanging around the house, actrually. Fox brought it back from Oregon.
evilevi From: evilevi Date: May 6th, 2006 04:21 am (UTC) (Link)
So ya gonna comment on the content or do I need to pout at ya?

Not right now. Right now I am going to go to bed and read for a while so I can stop my thoughts from biting each other's tails.

evilevi From: evilevi Date: May 6th, 2006 05:01 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ok, a few real thoughts. I wouldn't want you to pout.

You may not want to get me started on television as I have long and convoluted thoughts on the subject. I lived very happily without any television except Six Feet Under for 5 years with Meshel, but both of the men I've lived with seem to want it on allllllllll the time. I like to have one show that I watch with Dan (right now the new Dr. Who would be the one I'd pick) and occasionally sit with him and work on projects while he watches stuff that I don't mind. But lately I've been succeptible to just crashing on the couch. Once I move out on the one hand it won't really be a problem any more, but on the other hand it will be more important to come up with some other activity since I won't have as much time with him and don't want to spend it all watching the infernal box.

I'm not sure whether I'm easy to please, but I'm almost impossible to bore because I'm so introverted. People watching is a very interesting activity. Interacting is a lot trickier.

Figuring out "what I want with and for myself" is a big part of why I think I need to live on my own for a while.
annan_dum From: annan_dum Date: May 5th, 2006 05:58 pm (UTC) (Link)

contentedness

I dunno...I think being capable to refresh and revitalize from smaller things is a sign of good mental health, don't you? Whenever I actually want to GO somewhere for vacation it's usually because I feel like I want to run away from my problems. When I'm happy just to laze and do the comfortable things I want, I take that as a good sign.
I'm glad you're taking a break, you work hard.
Drink a mocha for me!
abmann From: abmann Date: May 5th, 2006 10:50 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: contentedness

You = true.
sculplady From: sculplady Date: May 5th, 2006 09:14 pm (UTC) (Link)

I don't think I have your email...

G and I don't know how to get to your place. He doesn't finish work until 9.
abmann From: abmann Date: May 5th, 2006 10:50 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: I don't think I have your email...

I have emailed you directions and our address. I am amused you don't have my email when I have yours.
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ayrynkat From: ayrynkat Date: May 6th, 2006 05:22 pm (UTC) (Link)
That is an awesome picture. It grabbed my attention, and held it. "Haunting" was not immediately the word that come to mind - that would have been "Mysterious." But, upon further reflection, I like "haunting" a whole lot more. It captures more of the mood.
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