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Four and ever gaining.
How does one express what it is to love someone for four years?

How do you say that you love a person with four years of learning, crying, laughing, laughing, chewing and nubbing? I mean, how do you let someone know with the last drop of being that they mean the world to you, that you would swim across the ocean, climb the tallest mountain (with one hand, mind) and all the other sappiest, saccharine clichés that exist? Is there any way to properly express that? it is all so complex, building a structure around so many ephemeral concepts.

How do you show someone you know them, that they know you? Fox and I know each other so well that we can roll each other over mid snore without waking. We'll get the sudden urge to chew a neck or shoulder that we'll butt heads because we do it at the same time. We know each other so well that we die laughing at the sight of dentures. That is just four years, that is knowing and understanding and being there and love.

I've been thinking about it for a few days now, curious if it is possible to express it. Four years. That's just under twenty percent of the time I've been alive. How do you emphasize four years? The more I wonder the less clear it becomes. And in the thinking it is clear that I am, again, overthinking. That it comes from my heart to hers means everything that I've been wanting to say.

lady_fox. I love you. I will always love you.

It doesn't get much simpler than that.


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abmann From: abmann Date: March 6th, 2006 03:01 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm postin' more here to avoid de-emphasizing the entry.

Decent weekend. Leather adn lace party was fun at Inferno. I had some issues with lack of attention that I'll try to post about later. Danced for over an hour straight on the stage. It was glorious.

Spend the day with Sev on Saturday, which was muchly needed adn greatly appreciated. Our friendship had been suffering. I feel much better everyhing when he and I can still be friendly... and gossip about Aetrix and Fox. :)

FINALLY met graydancer and sculplady after three fizzled attempts. It was very cool and nice. A little strained, but that is to be expected. We were all social adept enough to avoid too many lulls. I like them. Sadly, didn't get to his studio on Sunday because we got 5 inches of snow that marning adn afternoon. Would have taken too long and there were things to do.

Sunday morning our little quadrangle met for breakfast to discuss apatrment strategies, map ideal locations adn make a list of must-have features and nice-to-have features. Fox had an evening with a friend watching Kill Bill. Aetrix and I did laundry. Ain't nothin' hotter than a night at the laundromat. Then we bitched at the Oscars which was fun and cooked goulash... which ended up more like a stove-top macaroni casserole.

Four years together. Wow. It's just been so good.
rianwyn From: rianwyn Date: March 6th, 2006 04:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
Nothing says 'love' like a mix CD.
abmann From: abmann Date: March 6th, 2006 05:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hehe. I don't think I own any tapes any more.
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: March 6th, 2006 04:52 pm (UTC) (Link)

I love you. *hug*

<img src="http://www.scrabble-assoc.com/images/school/act/heart.gif'>
abmann From: abmann Date: March 6th, 2006 05:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
Glad you liked it.
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: March 6th, 2006 05:44 pm (UTC) (Link)
truededication From: truededication Date: March 7th, 2006 06:18 am (UTC) (Link)
I think the best way to communicate love is through kissing. GentleDom9 is an incredible expert at this, and it just gets better all the time. :)
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