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Aftermath
Slept through the night but had intense anger dreams directed at Sev. I literally woke with clenched fist and growls at my throat around 5:45. I think latent desires are taking over my dreams, wish fulfillment you know? I didn't realize how angry I was at Sev for last evening. I think the dreams were brought to surface by conversations had with both aetrix9 and lady_fox. The former as of yet somewhat unresolved given circumstance and the latter going smoothly.

I had a cathartic conversation with lady_fox regarding last night's debacle and a few issues swirling in the midst - surprisingly I allowed it to occur over the phone as she drove to work. I normally hate conversations such as those over the phone because you completely lose body language. It worked, I believe, because it may have been an extension of an earlier conversation we were having regarding Sev, gambitlebeau, and uses of "love" within different contexts. I think just airing a few thoughts I'd been mulling over helped me relax.

Still, I don't like having any anger directed at anyone within our squirrelly and quadrangular relationship.
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Some days I wish I could be wholly selfish.
Some days I wish I could loose my demons
without an intellectual check.
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Confidential to everyone:
I forgot my cell at home today!
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Huzzah! 23 hours until important deadline #1 and I'm finished.
Eat it, crazy micro-managing-but-"I-don't-want-to-manage-you" boss guy!

Current Mood: blank composed

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abmann From: abmann Date: September 13th, 2005 12:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
THANK YOU FOR YOUR WORDS OF SUPPORT, BITCHTOAST!
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abmann From: abmann Date: September 13th, 2005 01:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm less surprised and more upset that dream happened. I certainly don't feel angry about anything nor did I last night. I suppose it is just how the dream mechanism manifested based on all the events last night. It likely stems from me denying my gut reaction as related in a previous post.
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: September 13th, 2005 01:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
Your dreams are much more interesting than mine. Dunno if that's good or bad.

The new Jesse CD has 103 songs. It's going to take all day to listen to it... :)
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: September 13th, 2005 01:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
Oh, yeah. And look at my post again.
abmann From: abmann Date: September 13th, 2005 01:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
Want to go suit shopping with me today?
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: September 13th, 2005 01:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yes.
abmann From: abmann Date: September 13th, 2005 01:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
Meet at mall around 5? I'm going to do an easy workout to avoid muscle strain. Try to think of places we could go that do not include Mall places as I'm unsure where else to go.
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abmann From: abmann Date: September 13th, 2005 01:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
Hot. We need to get a CD player that can handle MP3 discs.

You know, there are no drivers for my DVD burner. I'm not sure how to fix the "I can't find myself on my own device list" problem...
lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: September 13th, 2005 01:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
Um... I'm just... amused at the problem right now. I have no idea how to fix it. I'm just... it can't find itself. It's funny.
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