October 10th, 2005

Cthulhu Joyce

Operation Impending Doom Two!

I have an actual update brewing but it will require a bit of focus and work is busy busy. I was talking with deep_blue_ (amazing, ne? Apparently the best way to remain in contact is just call when she's asleep... As bad as I felt, it didn't nearly equal my enjoyment of talking with her) about sexual chemistry and intent, the way we cycle energy between two people during sexual activity. It got me thinking on a few things that I want to write out. I think I'll do that tonight while I waut for her goup thing to finish tonight. Mmm. State Street coffee shops.

Weekend was full of not sleep which turned me into a jerk. Sorry 'bout that. Things got better Sunday evening, though. Wedding was lovely. Evil is so in love with that girl. And late evening rants on the state of governmental interference are cool but make me feel stupid when I have nothing to contribute. I continue to feel dumb and uninformed.

Side note:
Posted: 7,973 - Received: 6,452

Looks like I'll hit 8000 posted comments soon. Whee!

Your job!
Shift the balance between posted and received.
The Bunny is counting on you!
I'll even not comment a single thing on this entry to help. :)

Cowboy Lawman
You scored 4 Honor, 7 Justice, 7 Adventure, and 5 Individuality!

You don't just want to explore the open plains, you want to tame it.
You're a man with scruples and the steel nerves to back them up. You'd
fit well with gunslingers like Wyatt Earp and Bat Masterson. You're a
Cowboy Lawman.

Wear your star and sixgun proud, Marshall. You're gonna do just fine!

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 5% on Ninjinuity
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You scored higher than 82% on Knightlyness
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You scored higher than 57% on Cowboiosity
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You scored higher than 41% on Piratical Bent
Link: The Cowboy-Ninja-Pirate-Knight Test written by fluffy71 on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

A topic to help the discussion:
Chinese Food: Better stale or fresh? On Pizza?
I prefer stale, reheated unless it has been deep friend.
Cthulhu Joyce

On Tantra, spirit, sex and projecting intent.

While waiting for the Update.bml page to load, I realized that I don't much go into my spirituality in my journal. It isn't that I don't want to reveal these things rather that I don't think to filter things through a spiritual lens. Spirituality, to me you see, is more of a constant internal force of which I am constantly aware but is not something that is outwardly extended. Instead, I keep it to myself because my spirituality is just that, mine, in the sense that I don't expect others to understand/agree/believe anything remotely similar. Therefore, it is rarely applicable to non-personal situations.

The reason I mention this is that this entry will deal with something intensely personal. Not in the "don't hate me" sort of way but in the "this is mine" sort of way. Furthermore, as with most ideals of a spiritual nature, there isn't necessarily a logical deduction to follow. We believe waht we believe, follow what we follow. I couldn't deign to explain these things in a manner where everyone could understand unless we have some absolute base upon which to build. When you bring God(dess)/Deity/Jesus/Yahweh/Allah/Bob into the equation... well, either you do or you don't, you know?

This isn't locked to sexfilter because I think it's interesting in its own right. I'm for from graphic for those that aren't on the filter.. not that I"ve ever been graphic in there.... So, I'll be limited in detail unless I feel it necessary. By the wat, for those not on the filter feel free to comment to be added. I don't mind sharing these things. I prefer not to force it on anyone.

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Side bar: I should define what I mean by "energy." Even though I truly hate the word and what it has become, I still use it because if its intrinsicly fluidic nature. When I say energy I mean the spiritual essence, be it soul, healing, magic (no K damn it), will, intent, what have you. It is the spiritual quanta that we use to "power" our spiritual selves. (My belief in multip selves is likely a different entry in itself). In the traditional Lakota Shamanic structure, energy is an extention of Great Spirit (Tunkasila - pronounced tun-ka-sheela) in everything. It can be harnessed to do spiritual devotions and the like. Furthermore, everything lends a particular flavor to things. Men have male energy and women have women energy. (this is grossly simplified)

Because I believe it is in everything and an extension of The Big Guy, it is ever-renewing. The human form is a dynamo for it can also draw it from the universe to use as desired/needed.

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Side bar 2: I'm a Reiki practitioner. Reiki is a form of projected healing meditation. Students are taught how to syphon and channel what energy exists externally to bring people back into balance, to heal wounds of all types. One would think I'd have some amount of control over Tantric projection via my hand and arm. Why these two do not intermingle is beyond me. Collapse )

Nearly all religions will will tell you the following: Where there's a will, there is a way.
I think that sounds good for me.