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Let's just rip all the humanity out of my emotion.... - Portrait of a Young Man as The Artist — LiveJournal
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Let's just rip all the humanity out of my emotion....
I am generally pleased. Things of any sort have been going well. Work is work, by definition, but I'm pretty much done with everything and the deadline is a week away. I think I'm going to ditch out early today as the apartment had a minor explosion with the manifestation of a new, highly comfortable bed. The bed is so confortable in fact, that I slept through my alarm; thus, I was late to work. I would like to mention, however, that my "late" is still early enough to get here before 3/4 of my team.

I've got nothing else. I'm not feeling especially intellectual, really. The days have been filled with work, putting practice, exercise and that weird project I'm doing on Electra. I think tis is as close as I can get to contentment. I guess I could say I feel complete when I'm doing all these things. I enjoy the projects and the mild agitation from work - which is perplexing at best. I'd say it boils down to accomplishment.

I think I've gotten myself to the point where accomplishing work or projects or what have you is my status quo. That is, I'm unhappy unless I'm going something. And unless I'm doing many things and successfully so, I"m content. thats problematic. My happiness seems to be intertwined with overwork.

I think I need to establish my definitions of contentment and happiness.

I equate the two (as experimental psychologists are wont to do) with a measurable source, namely the degree of smile I have when I think about my current affairs. If I can think of all the things I'm doing and their current level of success and smile a little - the type of smirk we get when watching children fall on ice, that's contentment.

If my smile creases my eyes a little, or causes a chuckle or a sense of "wow" (this inludes how I hold my eyes open [an astonishment scale, actually]) this is happiness. I suppose I'm only really happy when I'm function at a level just below my worst moment in college.

I don't think this level of activity is feasible any more, not with jobs and workouts earing up to 10 hours a day. We can't all have vicalis's life style.. unless we too have Future Sam's trust fund. ;) I'd like to redefine these things. Perhaps migrating my current definition of "happiness" to "accomplishment" or "excellent success,' because I am obviously very successful. And my definition of contentment is really more aligned with society's definition of "happiness." No sense in being an odd ball when it causes me such grief, even if it is mild.

Side bar: yes, I do have degrees of facial expression that a catalogue with degrees of emotive projection. I'm aware that makes me really weird. Shut up! I just like t be consistent in how I view myself, and thus how others see me. Problematically, most of my reactions include much brow furrowing that others read as "Oh shit, he's angry again." I think I need to work on that. My self analysis may be interfering with honest emotional expression.

Right.. who needs humanity. Oiy. I'm almost a robot

Question: Anyone else using FireFox having trouble entering comments recently? I think soe of the comment entry enhancements have been selectively breaking LJ depending on commetn security.... Good lord, I'm QAing lj now....


You all must take this. I must know my enemies and equals.
Stolen from assfingers
Haughty Intellectual
You are 57% Rational, 28% Extroverted, 28% Brutal, and 71% Arrogant.

You are the Haughty Intellectual. You are a very rational person,
emphasizing logic over emotion, and you are also rather arrogant and
self-aggrandizing. You probably think of yourself as an intellectual,
and you would like everyone to know it. You may have an unhealthy
obsession with yourself, and consider yourself God's gift to the world,
thus causing everyone to hate you for being such an elitist twat. On
top of all that, you are also introverted and gentle. This means that
you are just a quiet thinker who wants fame and recognition, in all
likelihood. Rather lacking in emotion, introspective, gentle, and
arrogant, you are most certainly a Haughty Intellectual! And, most
likely, you will never achieve the recognition or fame you so desire!
Sweet!



To put it less negatively:

1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.

2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.

3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.

4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.


Compatibility:


Your exact opposite is the Schoolyard Bully. (Bullies like to beat up nerds, after all.)


Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Braggart, the Hand-Raiser, and the Robot.


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If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you
could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42%
Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is
close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well.
Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can
determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored
near fifty percent for certain traits.


The other personality types:

The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.




My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 39% on Rationality
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You scored higher than 30% on Extroversion
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You scored higher than 23% on Brutality
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You scored higher than 83% on Arrogance
Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on OkCupid Free Online Dating


Apparently I can also be a Starving Artist. Hard to be starving when you're actively trying to drop weight.

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chuzhuzhe From: chuzhuzhe Date: May 6th, 2005 03:50 pm (UTC) (Link)
So I was talking to Russell yesterday, and he's running a Sabbat pickup with Maryam and we agreed that you should come play in it. So you should tell him when you're free and have him run it then and it will be fun. Will be fun. heh.
abmann From: abmann Date: May 6th, 2005 03:57 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm free on weekends. :)

monkey monkey monkey monkey
feodoric From: feodoric Date: May 6th, 2005 04:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
Well, saturday might work. I've got a final in the morning, but after 12, I'm free all day.
abmann From: abmann Date: May 6th, 2005 04:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
I could do that. Let me know.
ayrynkat From: ayrynkat Date: May 6th, 2005 10:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ooh! Ooh! And Steve and I just decided that the three of us should go out to a real frisbee golf course. Like, this weekend. Do any of those exist around here that we could go to? Weather looks like it'll be beautiful! And you and I've metioned it off and on for, well, a while now.
abmann From: abmann Date: May 7th, 2005 02:29 am (UTC) (Link)
THere's a real course here. There are no real courses anywhere in Beloit. If I'm not coming for game, which it seems I'm not (unless I've missed something) you guys can come up here. I have plenty of real discs to lend.

Call me tomorrow if you like. I'll be going to the gym in the morning then free comic day.
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