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Portrait of a Young Man as The Artist
What’s in a Name?
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tyskkvinna From: tyskkvinna Date: April 10th, 2012 12:54 pm (UTC) (Link)
I recently had a moment where I just looked up and rummaged through who I've been for the past 10 years... amazing how much we change. A large part of me wants to purge it entirely, pretend it never happened. But then I realise that my closest friends are also nothing like who they were when I met them. I remember them in their awkward, awful times and I still love them... and ten years ago I thought I was just as awesome as I think I am now, so another part of me shudders in fear at what I'll think in another ten years...
abmann From: abmann Date: April 10th, 2012 01:05 pm (UTC) (Link)
Heh, I think our definitions of awesome become better articulated and rounded. They stand up to time better. There are things that I used to do or be that still matter and make me a better person now.

I can't get over my writing style from the first few years of entries. So... flowery and inefficient. :) Though I still like quite a bit of the poetry I was writing and wonder why I really stopped.

What did you find in your rummage?
tyskkvinna From: tyskkvinna Date: April 10th, 2012 01:26 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yes, I agree. It's really hard to compare how I feel about myself now vs. how I felt about myself then because I have a much more matured set of rules to judge myself on now.

I found that I really had no idea what I was doing. Or what I wanted. Or what made me happy. Or anything. I would bounce from thing to thing but nothing stuck, probably because I didn't put in the effort to actually master anything. This applies to people, jobs, hobbies, etc.

A lot of me is the same as I was.. in some cases that's good and in some cases I need to work on it more.
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