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AHHHHH AHHHHHHHH!!!!, originally uploaded by ABMann.

    Lighting one’s self on fire solves any number of niggling issues with life.
  1. You get all the attention you want.
  2. You no longer fear Wisconsin winters.
  3. Melting snow and ice at the end of the driveway is a cinch.
  4. You get to test the skin graft gun.

Et cetera, et cetera.

I am discontent with a number of things right now in a couple of areas and, i think, I don’t feel either welcome or allowed to discuss (or cogitate, as it were) on them at any length in a blog entry.

Firstly, if this is ostensibly a blog for my photographic work, that should be all I talk about. And, of course, I should do nothing but discuss photography and technique because people, you know… The Audience, doesn’t care.

Or should that be don’t care? “People” is singular but “Audience” isn’t?

Well, at least that is the impression I get from photographers who appear to be successful, that any person issues stay personal. no one wants to hear you whine.

Dilemma. I don’t think you can do both, have an even remotely professional product like this and vent or seek advice on personal issues at the same time.

Which is to say I feel stuck and less-than desirable in pretty much anything right now because I don’t feel capable of devoting the needed energy to make progress in anything – personal, profession, physical.

Stop. Switch gears. I think this quote from Haruki Murakami summarizes this philosophy well and, with my particular personal life choices, is especially hard to manage:

    Most runners run not because they want to live longer, but because they want to live life to the fullest. If you’re going to while away the years, it’s far better to live them with clear goals and fully alive then in a fog, and I believe running helps you to do that. Exerting yourself to the fullest within your individual limits: that’s the essence of running, and a metaphor for life.

-Haruki Murakami, What I Talk About When I Talk About Running

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lady_fox From: lady_fox Date: February 3rd, 2011 05:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
What about having a personal blog separate from a professional one?
nathan_lounge From: nathan_lounge Date: February 3rd, 2011 05:57 pm (UTC) (Link)

I've been following your blog way longer than you've been stealing souls.
nidea From: nidea Date: February 3rd, 2011 06:12 pm (UTC) (Link)
Filters. Useful in photography, necessary on LJ.
lipsoflove From: lipsoflove Date: February 5th, 2011 07:31 am (UTC) (Link)
I agree with lady_fox and nidea.

You don't have to be one or the other, especially here on LJ.
I started following you and your photography on LJ because you weren't a cookie cutter photography without a personality or any hard fought battles, and you weren't afraid to show the personal side of you along with your shots.

Your works became cooler because I was seeing the man behind the lens. Your insecurities, the escalation of talent, the way you joked around the awkward pauses or deep problems all kept me watching and appreciating.

No need to stop being yourself to be successful. I thought you were rockin' because you were a photog who decided to take photos of yourself in bathrooms while you traveled! That's the Will I like! Silly, awkward, quirky, but oh-so-cool and creative. :)
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