Log in

No account? Create an account
entries friends calendar profile ABMann.net Previous Previous Next Next
Portrait of a Young Man as The Artist
The Sound of One Hand
The Sound of One Hand 2010.38

"What is the Sound of the Single Hand? When you clap together both hands a sharp sound is heard; when you raise the one hand there is neither sound nor smell. Is this the High Heaven of which Confucius speaks?"
-The Zen Master Hakuin: Selected Writings

I admit, I'm reluctant to post photos of my arm for fear that I'll weird people out enough to run them off. it is a weakness as I should not be ashamed of who I am, what my body is. I do wonder, though, how much one arm affects my demeanor and interaction with people, how much it aids or retards certain things.

It is silly to be concerned, I think, over things I cannot help. So, make a very obvious photo of it.
42 comments or Leave a comment
vividazalea From: vividazalea Date: February 7th, 2010 07:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
I always wondered what happened to the arm ... but didn't want to ask because it seemed like something you didn't want to talk about. It was always a bit blurred or hidden in your self portiats.
abmann From: abmann Date: February 7th, 2010 07:53 pm (UTC) (Link)
It wasn't conscious. I focus more on my face and use a very wide aperture. Bokeh!

It was just a birth defect. No fun stories. :)
not_a_girl From: not_a_girl Date: February 7th, 2010 08:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
This is clearly your solution: http://coilhouse.net/2008/03/the-iron-hand-of-gotz-von-berlichingen/

Although one does wonder about a hypothetical. Let's say science progresses super fast due to a breakthrough (I'm thinking Shadowrun tech here of course). Congrats! In ten years we can now grow and graft a flesh-and-blood arm on! How would the process work to graft nerves? Would you have to learn how to use it like babies learn to move? Or would your experience in using your right arm translate easily to using a new left arm?
abmann From: abmann Date: February 7th, 2010 08:17 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think I would have to learn to use it. Since I never had it, I would expect that I don't have those portions of my brain dedicated to sensation and motor control for anything below my left elbow. So, I don't even know what sort of control I could attain or how my brain would process the influx of new sensations assuming they could graft the nerves.

Would the right nerve circuits even exist in my arm? Curious.
I'd settle for a iron left hook. :)
six_dollar_baby From: six_dollar_baby Date: February 7th, 2010 08:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
honestly, i wish you would show it off more. Americans are so terrified of our bodies that any sort of 'disability' is seen as something frightening-and most could do with a healthy dose or three of 'shock' therapy.

abmann From: abmann Date: February 7th, 2010 08:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
What's good for the goose is good for the gander. :)

I'm not terrified, per se, more interested in what is different. Would I have more friends? Be more sociable?

Then I try not to get attached to any of it because it is irrelevant! And you're right. Less denial. More chewing on my nub.
seventyeleventy From: seventyeleventy Date: February 7th, 2010 09:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
Paint it black and sprinkle some ash on it. Tell people you shook hands with the devil and got burned.

Personally, I didn't even notice the first time I met you. It wasn't until after seeing some of your self portraits about it that I noticed.
abmann From: abmann Date: February 7th, 2010 09:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
Was the first time we met your first gallery show at that coffee shop? Or the actually gallery gallery show? Both of those nights were pretty busy for you with all those fawning girls. :)
nidea From: nidea Date: February 7th, 2010 09:36 pm (UTC) (Link)
Indeed! Your body can do a lot of neat things, just as it is.
abmann From: abmann Date: February 8th, 2010 01:19 am (UTC) (Link)
Like ingest ludicrous numbers of chicken wings.
smed From: smed Date: February 7th, 2010 10:52 pm (UTC) (Link)
I'm proud of you for posting this. You're facing a fear and head on... or rather nub on, at that.
abmann From: abmann Date: February 8th, 2010 01:19 am (UTC) (Link)
Whoa, you're using lj again?
hawksley From: hawksley Date: February 8th, 2010 12:40 am (UTC) (Link)
if you look at photos of me from when i was younger, to today, in every single one i am subconsciously hiding my nonhand.

i went to a bar last night, and one of the people in the group who i had met once before was absolutely 100% turned off of me completely because i had this 'defect'. he made a few horrible comments that i one-upped him on, but... god, it hurt.

hawksley From: hawksley Date: February 8th, 2010 12:41 am (UTC) (Link)
what i'm trying to say is, thanks for posting this today. it's been weighing on my mind pretty heavily the last 24 hours.


realization_no1 From: realization_no1 Date: February 8th, 2010 02:01 am (UTC) (Link)
please get a tattoo of a ferret or a bunny! it would be perfect

^_^ i drew it myself.

i was inspired by this guy:

nathan_lounge From: nathan_lounge Date: February 8th, 2010 01:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
wytchelf From: wytchelf Date: February 8th, 2010 06:05 am (UTC) (Link)
Brave, amazing, talented, that is my opinion of you, your art, and your decision to face your fear head on. Sorry you were under the weather tonight, hopefully things will be better soon...:)
abmann From: abmann Date: February 8th, 2010 02:31 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you. Every other superbowl year I get a migraine. it's kind of annoying.
lipsoflove From: lipsoflove Date: February 8th, 2010 07:25 am (UTC) (Link)
Strut your stuff, Mr. Mann! If you don't, no one else will.
And I feel if we were different than what we are, we wouldn't be the amazing people we are today. Cliche, but true.
I like me, and I like you. So strut your stuff!
abmann From: abmann Date: February 8th, 2010 02:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
I can accept your cliché this time. This time.....
nathan_lounge From: nathan_lounge Date: February 8th, 2010 01:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
Holy crap, you're so popular!!!
abmann From: abmann Date: February 8th, 2010 02:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think my arm is popular.
42 comments or Leave a comment